A friend suggested that the only way I could rejuvenize my blog would be a post about "love making". I pointed out that I know everything and nothing about love making, so it would be a boring post. He thought it sounded intriguing. To keep him from drowning himself in cheap whiskey and tear, I'm recounting the conversation, but not posting about love making.
Is it ok that, after spending three and a half years working toward a teaching degree, I don't think I want to teach? I got my assignment on Wednesday, and I'm down in Kansas City, teaching science and history to kids in an "urban" high school, and I don't have a place to live, yet. Freaky. Maybe I'll be the shabby, sort of smelly student teacher who doubles as a drifter and mumbles convoluted political innuendos under my gin-soaked breath. Maybe. I think every Christian school needs one of those.
Anyways, I don't think I want to teach in the US. Maybe outside the country, or maybe I'd rather work for an organization which works at community development, of which education is a part. But after all the unit plans, explanations of my double major, focusing events, discussions on cognitive development, and classroom observations, I don't like it any more. I know it's totally cliche to have a crisis of identity your senior year of college, but I'm having one anyway. Sometimes the Man just gets you down.
I dunno. Maybe I'll just sit around and wait for the Apocalypse, since Jeff's so sure it's coming soon, anyways. Rather than deal with issues, I'll wait for the world to end.
P.S. Is it weird to anyone else that it was 80 degrees on Tuesday and there are two inches of snow on the ground this morning?
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i don't know about kansas city, but you should definitely go on l'abri. mmhmmm.
everything is strange.
I'm going to make a company, and I'm going to be head of that company, and Laura Dykstra will work for me by flailing her limbs around. I'm sure I could find you a position as well.
bethany.
you rock, rock.
kt
I'm slightly freaking out myself. Or maybe I misinterpreted...maybe you're completely cool and calm about your life goals suddenly changing.
(insert camaraderie)
My dearest Bethie, I can see you do have a lot on your mind about your future. I totally get the feeling. See how student teaching goes, but don't settle on teaching just because you got the degree and its too late too change, in other words DON'T SETTLE!! If you have desires and passion for something you do it even if it turns everything upside down and its not according to plan. Here's how i look at it, you only live one life on earth do whatever the heck you want to do (careerwise) and love what your going to do. Don't confine yourself to a time period or schedule and whats comfortable. God put those desires in you, it must be for a reason. This is just a thought I have come across and plan on keeping it. I love you bunches
I saw a girl that looked like she could be your sister at a hardcore/emo show last night
I think you just need someone to bad mouth teaching to make you want to do it. so here you go, it's for your benifit
teaching is probably the most worthless thing you can do with your life. kids hate school, and they won't remember anything, and the difference you'll make in the world will be minimal at best. Finally, no salary is worth haveing to be around self-absorbed teen agers all day.
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